Yesterday (New Years Day), I was despondent. I was morose. I felt uninspired. Here I was on the first day of a brand new year, with all the promise it holds, unable to feel excited or grateful. My mind kept running through what I “should” be happy about, what I “should” be grateful for. Yes, there were light moments throughout the day: Sitting on the couch snuggling with my doggy, Sadie, and watching her completely relax and soak up…
My body was out of alignment. For a few days I had been feeling a ‘clicking’ in my right hip and lower back. I went to chiropractor and got adjusted. It didn’t hold. Within 30 minutes it was clicking again. A deep tissue massage and another trip to the chiropractor helped, but did not completely resolve the issue. I knew my body was trying to tell me something. When an issue doesn’t resolve right away it’s an invitation to look…
I used to HATE confrontation. I would avoid it like the plague because I was raised to believe it’s “not nice” and I placed a high value on being “nice”. Is that true for you too? It’s one of the driving forces behind what I call “TOXIC NICENESS” (where we hold back from expressing how we really feel for fear of hurting someones feelings or to avoid them thinking badly of us.) Fear of confronting (looking at or speaking the…
Today marks the first day that I am officially an “empty nester”. The last of my three children left home yesterday for college. My older two have been gone for a while. (It’s a 10 year age difference between #2 and #3.) Last week we were all together for the first time in 6 years! #2 graduated from the Naval Officer training program and I seized the opportunity to create a mini family reunion around the celebration. My Mom flew…
Most of us are taught that being a strong, successful person means that you don’t entertain fear and you certainly don’t show it. Probably because wallowing in it can be draining and can rob us of our joy, self confidence, energy and our power. I know this to be true as I lived with anxiety (fear) for the first 30+ years of my life. I did not know it was my normal state until I experienced NOT having it for…
My cell phone rings. It’s my husband. “Your Moms flight has been cancelled. We’re on our way back home”. My reaction is not joy at having more time with my 87+ year old Mom. On the contrary, I’m pissed! I was really looking forward to her leaving. I love my Mom, but for no obvious reason, during the last week of her visit, her very presence had been triggering me. [trig·ger (trĭg′ər) A device used to release or activate a…
Did you see the movie “Fences”? I loved it! It is based on a powerful play by August Wilson. I loved that even though it was a movie, I felt like I was watching a play. No cinematic fluff. I loved that the filmmaker chose to keep it simple and NOT to use all of the tools available through current technology. It was carried solely on the strength of the brilliant acting (Viola Davis won the academy award for Best…
If you’ve been following my journey over the last 8 months or so, you’ll know that I was journeying though what I called “The Void”. I surrendered fully to my Souls journey, letting go of much of what I was doing and how I was doing them and creating space for what was wanting to be birthed next through me. It’s has been a journey that has required: Developing greater levels of courage and trust – in myself and the…
Well, Donald Trump has been in office 11 days and chances are you are feeling A) The world has gone mad B) Incredibly stressed and angry C) Disconnected from the whole thing I spoke with a friend last night (who lives in another country) and she was feeling incredibly stressed out by what is happening here in America. I was curious as to why she felt so affected, since she doesn’t live here. I forgot that the world is more…
Last week myself, my husband and my youngest son were heading to Jamaica for the weekend to attend my nieces wedding. We had a 7 am flight. It’s always a struggle to get my teenage son out the door that early in the morning, but after much nagging and shouting, we finally made it to the Baltimore airport at 5:30 am. I attempt to get us checked in, while my husband parks the car, but the kiosk keeps spitting out…
